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Wednesday, July 19, 2006

Wed, 19 Jul 2006 00:15:09 GMT

Have you ever had the feeling,
where your heart skips a beat.
&& you relize how happy you feel.
&& you're scared that it'll end.
but your just happy you feel so great.
where everything is so wonderful.
i'm overcome with joy,
just out of nowhere.
happier than i've been
and the relization of my life right now,
is ~~becoming clearer~~
&& I see how truely blessed I am.
..butterflies perhaps?

i'm really really happy.
but yeah.
Xanga is pretty lame.
blekk.

&& I said i'd never feel this way again.
oh boy was I wrong.
how'd i let myself fall.

Monday, July 03, 2006

Mon, 03 Jul 2006 07:29:15 GMT



Update on life:
My mom  lost the baby.
it was sad;; but she's getting better about it.
I'm going to Florida Wednesday the 5th of July
&& won't be back till July the 13th.

I like a boy.
he's quite great.

I'm probably going crazy again.
Hello my name is: Destruction.
&& some call me heartache.

Stay with me:
by:Josh Gracin.

Baby, the clock on the wall is lying
It's not really that late
It's too cold outside to be walking around the streets of this town
Anywhere if you think you have to be can wait
So why don't you stay with me
Share all your secrets tonight
We can make believe the morning sun never will rise
Come and lay your head on this big brass bed
And we'll be alright as long as you stay with me, yeah
Baby, there's just no use in hiding
The way that I am feeling right now
With you standing there baby I swear I can't help but stare
Girl you're wearing me out, wearing me out
Baby,  why don't you stay with me
Share all your secrets tonight
We can make believe the morning sun never will rise
Come and lay your head on this big brass bed
And we'll be alright as long as you stay with me, yeah
Baby don't go it looks like it's starting to rain
And it's so warm here in this apartment wrapped up in this blanket
So stay
Stay with me
Share all your secrets tonight
We can make believe the morning sun never will rise
Come and lay your head on this big brass bed
And we'll be alright as long as you stay
I'll be alright as long as you stay with me, yeah
Stay with me

Thursday, June 15, 2006

Thu, 15 Jun 2006 05:05:21 GMT

hey guys.
not much has been happening.
My birthday came and went.
I got some mooolah,
&& that was pretty cool.
my friends treated me to a movie&&mcalesters.
&& we dressed up;;
which made it extra cool.
I even got some more fairy wings!

I got to hang out with Chelsey today;;
&& we went to the mall
&& to mcalesters{of course}
then we made IHWLC t-shirts.
they're the best thing since sliced bread.
{no i'm not even kidding}
but yeah;; that's about it.

my mom is having problems with the baby.
she might lose it.
so pray for her {please}

I've realized that i'm the substitute person.
what a crappy thing.

Monday, June 05, 2006

Mon, 05 Jun 2006 06:22:37 GMT

I am a troubled teen.
The past few weeks have been a blur.
It's like getting off a treadmill;;
You feel like everything is rushing forward
&& like you're gonna fall.
I've been out of it.
I think i'm losing my mind,
Hanging out with friends has been fun though.
It feels good to be cared about.

So the other night,
I was at the Underoath concert,
and for those of you who don't know,
it's a 'Rock Band'
&& at this 'rock concert' there was moshing.
&& stuff like that.
Well in the midst of all this
'moshing'
I stopped and zoned out.
There were a million things happening
around me but i just stood there
&& forgot where I was for atleast 2minutes.
In the solitary confinement of myself.
it's funny what the subconcious mind can make you do.
I'm going crazy.

Sweet 16 is coming up.
Sunday// June 11th.
no party.
because i'm lame.

Take your records take your freedom;;
take your memories I don't need 'em.

&&I thought that bein strong was
never losin your self control.

16.

Friday, May 05, 2006

Fri, 05 May 2006 20:41:03 GMT

a view from my thinking place.

WEST SIDE STORY.
May 4,5,6,8,9 at 7pm
Sunday,May 7 at 3pm matinee.
Siegel High school auditorium.
come see it. it's fabulous.
and I'm doing the spotlight&&set change=)

Oh&&the braces are off.

Saturday, April 22, 2006

Sat, 22 Apr 2006 20:31:32 GMT

So i just wrote a really long post.
&& it deleted..of course.
ughhhh i hate today.
I've been frustrated and i dunno.
I think my house brings that side of me out.
okay so a summary of what I wrote.
In exactly 8days my teeth will become naked.
3.5 years of my life comes to an end.
Nothing really going on.
Gateway the 1st week of May.
No Finals =)
&& out in 3 or 4 mondays!

Nothing going on in the love life.
Doesn't seem anyone's really interested in me.
nor I most people..ick.
Maybe i just want that joy.
Maybe not.
I don't know how indecisive I am.
Life is just coming full force.
Crazy how that happens and all yah know?
Today has just been weird.
Like somethings missing.

Oh i have a song in my heart.
&& I'm the only one that knows the beat.
How loverly.
man I'm so tired right now.
icky. but that is the good of weekends aye?!
ohh well that's all I have to say.
arevederci.
aurevoir.
ciao.

{sarah sunshine*}

Attachment is the great
fabricator of illusions;
reality can be attained
only by someone who is detached.
-Simon Weil

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

Wed, 22 Mar 2006 00:45:43 GMT

Hey Guys! What's been goin on?
nothing here really.
Schooling and everything.
Spring Break is in 3days.
ahh the joyous event =)
I'm so ready for it.
I've been needing the extra sleep.
How Flippin Awesome.
You know who is a great artist?
John Denver, he's just such an awesome artist.
Ohh well. Nothin else to say.
Leave me some love.

Vegetarian;; 1month 1week.
&& counting..

I love Publix.
♥

I'm not going to obsess anymore.
I'm not going to give in anymore.
I'm not going to spend my nights staying up because of you.
I won't let the thoughts in gulf me anymore.
I won't let my mind consume my heart.
I won't let you see me cry.
You'll just have to watch me smile.
The kind of smile that made you weak in the knees.
I know you won't care.
I know you don't now.
I know I'm not the best person.
I know I try.
I can't help confusion.
I can't help make up your mind.
i can't take alot of crap.
The drama doesn't end.
Highschool is a disaster.
I've had some good times though.
I'm no longer concerned with being cool,
so different from freshman year.
Everything I do is what I want to do.
I'm not scared to stand up for myself.
&& I'm not afraid to walk away from you.
I'll keep my head up high.
I'll look you in the face.
You won't be able to see how much it hurts.
Just walking away.

Thursday, March 09, 2006

Thu, 09 Mar 2006 22:18:43 GMT

Oh how I love my Chelsey-welsey ♥

so how's it going you crazy kids?
i'm alright i suppose...
3days weekend=)
This weekend is gonna be amazing.
Im so happy i get to miss school tomorrow,
i really need it.
I've been so aggrivated here lately,
it's like nobody can grow up,
i mean I understand being a kid at heart,
but these people...omw.
Rude and Mean and stuff like that,
it's like there's no such thing as common curtisy.

I'm a vegetarian now.
Why?: I had a feather in my chicken,
so yes, i haven't had meat in 3weeks.
We're having some crazy storms,
so I'm gonna get off here.
peace.love.rock&roll

What a nation,
More people vote for American Idol
than they vote for the president.
♥

Monday, February 27, 2006

Mon, 27 Feb 2006 00:26:46 GMT

bahh this made me smile.

How are you all?
Do you ever wonder;;
...if people miss you.
...if you can actually leave everything behind.
...if true love is really there.
...where you'll be in 10..5...1..1/2 a year.
...where your food comes from.
...why it comes out that way.
...why you get blisters from new shoes.
...why it's so hard to get into a new appliance.
...why the U.S is so stubborn.
ooh how my mind works.

So I have realized lately,
that i'm an angry little lady.
Maybe people should stop
pissing me off.
but that's just an idea.
Schools been lame,
choir rehearsals and all.
Choir Festival Thursday,
4day week 2 weeks straight,
how fruckin awesome.
Babysitting=chaching=)
so life is on the ups for now.
which is a nice change,
and I am indeed thankful!!
Well the single bit is getting old.
but i'll live.
2months till the big one six.
hells yess.

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

Tue, 21 Feb 2006 02:58:00 GMT

I wanna be the wind that fills your sails
Be the hand that lifts your veil
Be the moon that moves your tides
The sun comin' up in your eyes
Be the wheel that never rusts
Be the spark that lights you up
All that you've been dreamin' of and more
So much more
I wanna be your everything.

ahh Keith Urban.
The Huntsville show was great,
Knoxville was okay,
but not as good, the crowd sucked.

I'm so ready to get out of murfreesboro,
i'm so sick of everything,
for once my brother and I
really and truely agree,
{how scary, I know}

How bout this snow we've had?
Pretty sweet huh!?
I went sledding for the first time,
and it was so much fun.

but yeah,
life is prettty lame lately.
Spring Break: 33days.
ohh the irony.